It try not to think about you,
But the more I try to run away from you,
The more I find you in my thoughts.
I try to not to dial your number,
Right after recalling,
How much I miss you,
And sometimes I succeed,
Or so I tell myself,
Until that moment when I can’t help it,
Then you’ll find me lurking in your socials,
Just, so that I can check up on you.
This is the part where I now admit,
That yes, I’m still hung up on you,
Yes, you are still the one I think about early in the morning,
And late at night, when I am retiring to my bed.
On a different day, however,
You’ll find me trying not to think about you,
Trying not to miss you as much,
Because I still do,
Because every now and then,
Even though I won’t admit it,
I wish that things would be different between us.
18th |January |2020.